*Birthdays Suck*

Well, I hate birthdays... I really, really do. I do NOT need the yearly reminder that I am one year closer to dieing, and that I have managed to live another year without accomplishing any of my goals. I thought I would have taken the GREs by now, and that we would be moving out of state this autumn - so that I could start Graduate School. I am however, still trying to study, although not as often as I would like... and I haven't even had a chance to LOOK at Grad Schools.



It is depressing to know that I will be celebrating yet another birthday here in Maine again next year... and it sucks. I don't have a single friend that lives in this state, so I cannot have a party or go out with friends - and THAT is how you are meant to celebrate your birthday... get obliterated and try to forget that it's happening. I can't go out drinking with A though - he doesn't drink and he would just stare at me... what's the point of that? It's only fun to go out with a group in that respect.



As happy as it makes me that two whole people remembered my birthday - it really bugs me that most people didn't. I don't think I would mind so much if I didn't go out of my way to do my very best to remember all of theirs. I don't know, maybe there are still cards coming in the mail... I sure hope so... but I know that they aren't. The people that I work with - who I told on MONDAY that it was my birthday on Wednesday, didn't even remember. They throw parties for everyone else in the office, but not for me - just one more reason for me to feel like I don't fit in here. This is not the place that I belong, I know this for sure... so maybe it's time that I start looking for a new job here in Maine since I know that I won't be leaving the state anytime soon (b/c of my grandmother).



A did his best to try and make me happy - he bought me a Microsoft Zune MP3 Player, and a beautiful set of Tahitian Pearl earrings... but I guess that gifts don't make up for spending my birthday on my couch watching tv.

I just really hate birthdays!

*Narith and Vathana's Wedding*

This weekend A and I went down to RI for Narith's and Vathana's wedding... and it was so beautiful! I had only been to a few other wedding before, but this one was the best by FAR and the most interesting for sure. It was nice to see them both, and we also got the opportunity to hang out with Pros and Srey for a bit.

It's a weird feeling going to a wedding ... I'm not sure why, but it is a little bit sad. I guess there is that "will I ever be THAT happy" feeling that you get when you see two people totally in love, but also you think that as happy a day as it is for the two of them, it must be a bit sad to know that this day that they have looked forward to forEVER is almost over and they cannot ever do it again. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be HAPPIER for them - and I must admit that I almost cried during the ceremony!

The PREceremony ceremony was even more beautiful - with costumes and traditions.. it was just amazing! Narith look so amazing! I was just glad that I had the opportunity to be a part of their special day! :)

*Updates*

I haven't had much of a chance to write here in a while - things have been rather hectic in my life. My grandmother was diagnosed with malignant, metastatic stage 4 bile duct cancer only a few months back - and it seems like it has been one piece of bad news after another - in regards to her health that is. She has been in and out of the hospital, and very scared. This has all taken a large toll on my family, especially my mother - as my father is busy dealing with his uncle who is suffering from a recurrence of his esophageal cancer.

I was never happy to be back in Maine, but I guess that I couldn't find a better reason to stay other than to spend time with/help my grandmother.

A and I are trying to make the most of our life here - we've gotten ourselves a new little kitty - Kiwi.... and she's an irritating, adorable ball of fur who I am madly in love with!

She is absolutely adorable and she follows me around the apartment and won't leave my side. She is also a little pig who wants nothing more than to eat her life away... thus we have been forced to child 'kitty' proof all of our cabinets so that she cannot gorge herself on food.

Last week we finally bought tickets to take a holiday, which I'm looking forward to more than you can even imagine! We are going to spend two wonderful weeks travelling around Malaysia and Singapore ... and I CANNOT WAIT!

This weekend we are going down to RI for my friend's (Narith and Vathana) wedding. A and I have purchased all new clothing as we didn't have anything to wear, and we've gotten a hotel room in Warwick.

Other than the above, nothing much is new... but I promise that I am going to try to be better at keeping this all updated!!!!